An Ocean And A Drop

How much one can love someone? Well, there are no measurements of love, but still tell me. Okey, I will tell you about myself. I love someone like an ocean, got the idea about how to measure love? :)) Some of you might not agree, but its true that I am hiding that ocean in my heart. Haha. Who asked why hiding? Because, It is really hidden from her. I have not expressed my love to her due to two reasons. First Reason, Only one and that is I fear rejection. Second Reason, Because I dont want to lose the Drop Of Love that I am getting from her. She is my best friend and I fear if she breaks this relation, the only door of that Drop of love also will be closed. I cannot even imagine, what my life will be like if I will lose her. And I am not ready to take that risk at the moment.

But sometimes, I think, is it justified? One side there is an ocean of love and the other side there is only a drop of love. The question arise in my mind, why this happens with me? This is second time happening to me. Why can't I find equally balanced love.

At this point, I would also like to mention that, as best her friend, she will give me all the points. But why it fails, when it comes to love? Why am I not being loved by her? Why can't I stand a single chance to be loved by Someone. Is there anything wrong with me? Anything wrong with me as human being. No, as human being I get full marks, then? I Don't know, I am still looking for the right answer. But, probably, when I will get answer of this question, It will be too late.